If there was any consolation these past days, it's the realization of how much I love my family! Of course, what happened was a bit too much to make me realize things. But then again, there are just some things you have to live with as they come along and to be able to learn love is actually the most that you can do.
So I guess I'm pretty fine now, though at some hours of the day I can't help not remembering memories.
I'm posting photos from last summer, from a random quick out-of-town trip in Tokyo's peripheries. These past days were just terribly cold that I miss summer more than ever. I also miss train rides, those times when the landscapes just blur outside the window like a roll of an unedited film.
Oh how I wish winter is more compassionate and less awful, especially for a boy like me who loves to drive around with a bike.
I take this chance to say my appreciation to everyone who left those notes in my previous post to cheer me up! You, guys, are my warmth this winter. Sorry for being depressing or depressive. I'll have more sunshine soon. Bliss.
Yesterday, my grandmother passed away. I received the news in an empty park. How unfair and how unruly that cold tears are sent through a wireless phone call. Story of my life.
Thanks everyone for your very very nice comments. I'm reading them, and they are my sources of joy these days. I'll respond to all of them as soon as I finish my homeworks, and reel over this poignant heartache.
Thanks to Aron, who posted this song in his blog, I was hooked indefinitely to Nakamura-san's music. There was a time when I just looped this song the whole night, and I had the most vivid dreams! This is also the best companion when I usually go home from the school at 1 in the morning, and there's only me, Toru the bike, the empty dark alleys, and the silent traffic lights from every other block.
Arne, Haruka Nakamura from the album Grace (2008)
YG said Nakamura is like the Japanese Sigur Ros. Now I can't wait to go to one of his live performances (I'll definitely look for one).
The past week was one hell of a ride. Just like the weather in Tokyo. The other day we hit 20 degrees celsius, the following day I was freezing my ass while riding Toru, my bicycle.
Finals week is around the corner, too. I hate this when I feel like a student. haha
I cannot wait for spring break. I cannot wait to clear all the to-dos on my table. It seems like I always cannot wait for something that I don't know.
Middle of a weekend and I'm having ennui. I'm having gas and all that is listless.
There's so many things to do and I cannot wait for something.
These past two nights were well spent with good friends, cooking and eating delicious dinners. Funny how appetite makes people slow down a bit and take things lightly. Nothing beats the company of good food and laughters, right?
January, so far, has been like no other. Half way of the month, and everything is falling to the right places as always. I wish for this to continue as I brave the colder days of the winter ahead.